Progress(?)

Been surprisingly okay for the past couple of weeks. So okay that I stopped taking my medication.
Big mistake.
HUGE!

I was unaware that stopping abruptly comes with withdrawal symptoms. It took me a whole day to realize that my dizziness, fuzziness, and the urge to black out was due to side effects and not some strange condition. I quickly got back on the medication but it took a good 5 days to go back to “normal.”

I’m not certain how I feel about this development yet. It is certainly a sign that I need to be weaned off the medication should I ever try to stop.
However, I am also certain that that will never be an option for me  all things considered.

For now I am okay. I can’t say that I am 100% because I am truly not. I don’t believe I ever will be “normal.”
I think I am slowly coming to terms with this while at the same time it is a bit frightening.