Decisions

I need a change…

Since I came home I have lost myself.

I truly no longer know who I am.

I have lashed out, pushed people away, thrown people away, and have had no compassion for anyone.

Not even myself.

Those who know what I’ve been through these past three years will say it’s ok.

It isn’t. Unintentionally I have become someone I dislike.

I need to become “me” again; whoever that is.

It will not be the trusting, blindly loyal, naive woman I used to be.

I need to be more compassionate and not be so quick to react.

I need to stop allowing the pain and the past to control me.